When Getting Lonely

I had the worst feeling in my life I cried and cried so many times I couldn’t stop my tears.
Feeling bad starting in university even I arrived with happy feeling but when u did so much to help your friends and make them find what they want and gain there goals and then when you want help no one care about you .

When you cry all day cause of bad situation and u do every thing in rule but you catch nothing and others get grades even its same project and same person write the project but all that cause the fucking Dr who teach the course. And then these others told you why you don’t tell us that there is small mistake in the project and we didn’t take the complete grades. so u went back to home feeling failed in every thing and you are stick here and nothing on earth can grasp you from that stinking hole and then feeling homeless even you have home , feeling you are not in peace , but in fact you are in your home no one else can come inside .
So you went out walking to take breaths, healthy and fresh air and then you determine that you have no friends, no one beside you calming you down, washing your face from all that tears and you remember when you were at university in the middle of all your friends but no one can feel what you feeling, no one cares on you, all what they want “JOY”.

Some times when I look at sky I saw stars brighten, its like there still a hope or one wish, so you pray and ask God to give you success and peace no more and cry cause this is the only thing you still have in the earth, after that you realize that you are hopeless.

Some times I wish to had a lover or partner or soul mate OR ANY THING LIKE A PET and I fight to keep him/her beside me but at the end of the day when I open MY home’s door and enter my home and went to sleep I think and think and think that every thing in earth born to be separated from each other.

Some times I wish to have some one loves me always near me, asking about me, guiding me, give me his/her advice some one who really can accept me as I’ am hug me at night before I fall in sleep, asking me if I want any help, asking me how is your studying, family. Just do that and leave at least one per week.
I wish I can stay with my family even I knew that they can’t know what is my feeling but at least you can feel safe with them because there where you belong to .
Why do good people always get pain and always hurt and when you take a look to people who are self-seeking always are successful in there life .
I don’t know why I’m writing these thing but maybe cause here I can say what ever I want to say no one can charge me for that no one can tell me stop saying that no one tell me okay when you finished tell me I’m sitting there.


Sometimes when you cry,
no one sees your tears...


Sometimes when you are in pain,
no one sees your hurt..


Sometimes when you are worried,
no one sees your stress...


Sometimes when you are happy,
no one sees your smile...