When Getting Lonely

Hey All guys I’m so sorry cause all subject was boring and gives you bad feeling but in fact all that because my Course which is Computer Organization and Assembly language
Tomorrow morning I have the final exam for this course I hope I can do well and teacher give me good grade at least not an “ F “ any way I study well and then went to my friends to study together but I hope all these help.
Tomorrow I’m going to know if I can graduate this semester or no :S
Wish me Luck

I had the worst feeling in my life I cried and cried so many times I couldn’t stop my tears.
Feeling bad starting in university even I arrived with happy feeling but when u did so much to help your friends and make them find what they want and gain there goals and then when you want help no one care about you .

When you cry all day cause of bad situation and u do every thing in rule but you catch nothing and others get grades even its same project and same person write the project but all that cause the fucking Dr who teach the course. And then these others told you why you don’t tell us that there is small mistake in the project and we didn’t take the complete grades. so u went back to home feeling failed in every thing and you are stick here and nothing on earth can grasp you from that stinking hole and then feeling homeless even you have home , feeling you are not in peace , but in fact you are in your home no one else can come inside .
So you went out walking to take breaths, healthy and fresh air and then you determine that you have no friends, no one beside you calming you down, washing your face from all that tears and you remember when you were at university in the middle of all your friends but no one can feel what you feeling, no one cares on you, all what they want “JOY”.

Some times when I look at sky I saw stars brighten, its like there still a hope or one wish, so you pray and ask God to give you success and peace no more and cry cause this is the only thing you still have in the earth, after that you realize that you are hopeless.

Some times I wish to had a lover or partner or soul mate OR ANY THING LIKE A PET and I fight to keep him/her beside me but at the end of the day when I open MY home’s door and enter my home and went to sleep I think and think and think that every thing in earth born to be separated from each other.

Some times I wish to have some one loves me always near me, asking about me, guiding me, give me his/her advice some one who really can accept me as I’ am hug me at night before I fall in sleep, asking me if I want any help, asking me how is your studying, family. Just do that and leave at least one per week.
I wish I can stay with my family even I knew that they can’t know what is my feeling but at least you can feel safe with them because there where you belong to .
Why do good people always get pain and always hurt and when you take a look to people who are self-seeking always are successful in there life .
I don’t know why I’m writing these thing but maybe cause here I can say what ever I want to say no one can charge me for that no one can tell me stop saying that no one tell me okay when you finished tell me I’m sitting there.


Sometimes when you cry,
no one sees your tears...


Sometimes when you are in pain,
no one sees your hurt..


Sometimes when you are worried,
no one sees your stress...


Sometimes when you are happy,
no one sees your smile...

I would like to dedicate this picture to the person who really deserve to be an angel to the person who grasped me to life again after sands coat me and I get tired from life , the person who I wish not to be unable to find her one day , and I wish to be able to (….) again cause even it might hurt you a lot but that feeling who make people live again after there death .

All people makes mistakes and I wished I didn’t tell you what I was doing yesterday cause I know it bad and not good but some times we do some thing to let another person react again and refresh his never-ending ghastly emotion.

Monmon I’m SO SORRY PLZ FORGIVE ME

All folks dreams to have peaceful life and great love story and this story never stopped, but be sure that one day every one will get what he wants soon or after .
Maybe it takes longer time and maybe extended time.
More and more passing time your thirsty to be loved become angelic and also the ways you want to be loved and to love become angelic.
So all what I can tell you now is to wait because love always find his way to you.

Some times we do many thing to let others glad and possibly to allow other locate his/her soul mate but at any rate you earn word “ Thank you “ but as a substitute of that I got nothing additionally I recognize that every thing I said it to my friend he told it to her.

Many times I fall in the same mistake and every time I said I had to delete every thing makes me feel bad or let people thing bad things about me , but I always forgive and forgot what happened .
But this time I’m going to take it seriously and I will delete friends from my life and will start from today and goon.
I always gave chances to every one and every time I gave this chance I get suffered from that person.
Fuck this life and fuck friendships I think life going to be better if u live it with yourself .
:D

Since yesterday I sent two of my projects I felt very happy , free and peace.
So today I took the day off I didn’t attend my classes and I went to university just to sit with friends and to talk.
And before I go home I went to Virgen store to check if they still have BOS and Tarot.
There I couldn’t explain what happened cause I wish I can buy the Tarot but because I have no money in my wallet I just looked at it and looked inside the book, after I hid the book cause I wanna buy it soon and it was the last one there some body came and ask for magic book and in Arabic when he said that I felt ok cause he won’t took mine cause he need Arabic book and mines in English.

I had a bad impression about CO course “CO= Computer Origination and assembly language”
Cause this is my last semester in university and I don’t want to repeat any course in spring so to let my teacher know that I’m agree with “ D “ grade I told him this is my last semester in university and I will work after that and …….etc
Today I felt that he wants to give me an “ F “ grade , and let me repeat the course again and I don’t want that , and I know all universities have excuse on graduated student and more than that this course is shit and not useful so what can I do I don’t want to fail and repeat it .
he told me strange words i never hear such this from teacher before i guess his teacher was kicking his ass every day that is why all his student took " F " .
While I was on my way to home I really want to cry and stop the time and switch this teacher with another maybe another one can help and give me at least “ D “ grade even if I don’t deserve it , because I will gradate.
God plz help me

Which I’m using it now cause I hate use the same signature all time
Hope you like it after all that time spent to finish it
Waiting your opinion

It was Sunday and it was boring as usual and I was planning to complete two of my projects any way I finished one only because I got a phone call from a friend of I telling me to go out tonight for walking on beach and I answer him ok lets go , all that because I’m feeling bad and hopefully to finish this feeling to continue my life and University studies so I went out with him and with 3 other person “ sure we know them “ .
At beach we walked and talked and ate and drink Nescafe at “Uncle Deak” . and then walk back to Rawsha. While we were waiting another friend a group of men come closer to us and on of them run he wants to jump over the edge but his feet missed the edge and fall down on earth but his looking in these seconds was like watching a disaster cause he fall over his face and I couldn’t see his face all what I saw at that moment is a guy with feats up on air and he is standing on his neck and there is no part called face so I felt bad for him and also I felt his pain on his body . I wish he could feel better and nothing happened to his bones . and after that I saw two people a guy holding her from back I didn’t know why but I felt they were lovers cause the way he was holding her and trying to make her feel better not a normal way between any people , in that moment I wished I can go out with the girl that I like .
What a poor guy I am :P

Some times we need to hear sweet words from special people those people who really we care about them.
Some times songs may gives us a hope to stay where we are and maybe make another step.
Some times we might trust wrong people and tell them all or some of our secrets.
Some times we might fall in love and cry nights , and no one see our tears , and at the end we find out that we are no exist in beloved’s life.
Some times we walk facing the wind just to reach a goal and either we find out that we really reach it or that goal made by or imagination.
Some times we wish to go back in time to change some thing or at least to take care of following mirage.

Yesterday I couldn’t sleep I even felt weakness, I do not know what to do.
I need an advice I though and though about thousand of people that I know , one by one and what can I say , I even though about people who I don’t know them very well I was in bad mood I couldn’t stop my tears.
I felt that I need to stop the time just for period of time just to take rest and refresh myself , many things I should finished , my courses in university , projects and other projects not to university .
None of these things finished, more over I didn’t took any good grade even I study, I don’t know why?
Now I wish if I can stop the time and refresh myself to continue my life and get back my life

It was very nice evening .
and this tree for the new year

I was invited to go to " Fadel Shaker " singer but I said no cause I wasn't on mood to go :( but then I wished I didn't said that

any way it was great at night we went to DT >> " Down Town " and walk little and talk and take pic and that is it

happy new year for all