When Getting Lonely

I believe that it is the right time to talk about what I have been hiding for 3 weeks.
3 weeks ago I started working a company , this company I have been dreaming in working with them because of what I saw of its work before when I make training there.
this dream come true suddenly I even don't know how I started working, every thing run quickly.
first time I attend it was boring day cause I have to wait tell every thing is prepared for me and wait tell I know what should I do and how should I do it.
second day was outside in conference in Sheraton Hotel from 9:00 till 5:00 and back to office and there was a meeting ( Pipe-Line ) I was wondering what is this and what managers are talking about till the GM stopped the meeting for a while and start explain to me every thing. And the Big Manager start again talking with his employee and start explain and discuss his ideas and his point of view
here I was shocked because I never see manager like him before
he is gentle and have a smile
he also have very strong point of view in every thing and even he can talk with you and open disquisition just to make you understand some thing and let you believe in it or let him believe in your point
he is very kind person
and today he talked to me and he put me under his arm like one of his children and asked me what happened with this and this ......
don't ask me what was my feeling in that moment.
I really wish if I can one day let him know about my feeling, my embracing am I about him.