When Getting Lonely

Oh my God this is the second time I wrote this post, don't ask me why cause I don't want to go though this.

In fact I want to say that there is people still believe that Good things still alive and I don't agree with this because it is disappear from this Earth.

again and again and again problems follow me I try hard to defeat it but , what ever.

soon I might move to new job. Or might sign contract with this company who knows :D

I donno what can I call this but each time I go to party, wedding or even some thing and a happy I end with a bad feeling and a tears.
every thing was ok, until they wedding almost end I went out and the feeling of sad and crying appear.
and the most thing let me wanna cry is my friends start dancing ( Dabkeh ) and singing ( Mawal ) and I get shocked of him. i cant do this not because im shy because i donno how ?!!...
I donno what should I say or how should I dance.
I can dance only in the middle not on the first and he was able to shining in his dance.
and I end up alone in car with my tears and songs.

its my Birthday, and i was waiting for this moment to write again
long time didnt add any thing
tomorrow i will write some thing new

Finally I get phone call from Qtel.
now I donno what should I do

should I leave the company here or should I stay
here many things are good

Salary, kind of work, and staff

Qtel the good thing is

long tearm job