When Getting Lonely

كثيرا ما يطرق بابنا وكثيرون هم ممن يلبسونه في حياتهم اليوميه

يحيطون بنا ،وهم حولنا يطوفون ،رافعين راياتهم البيضاء الكاذبة

يدخلون حياتنا بكذبة لكي يقتربون منا وهناك اخرون بانتظار دورهم

الكذب هو سلاح اشاع استعماله في ايامنا هذه

ولسهولته وسرعته اصبح انتشاره اوسع واكبر



دخلنا عالم هؤلاء وخضنا معهم معاركهم فلم نجد دواعي استعماله الا الاتي

هربا من مأزق، هربا من اجابة على سؤال، هربا من الحقيقة

وقد بلغ تأثيره انهم اصبحوا يستعملونه في حياتهم اليومية

فاصبح تواجدها مطلبا اساسيا للفت الانظار اليهم



يعيشون في كذبة كبيرة والغريب انهم يصدقون ما يقولون

بل انهم يعيشون كذبتهم كانها حقيقة والبعض يرويها لك بحذافيرها الممله

وهناك ممن ياتون لك بادلة او يضع نفسه تحت الاختبار بقولك - يمكنك ان تسال او اذهب واسال



تتطورت هذه الحرفة الى ان اصبح هناك محترفون لها ماهرون فيها

يحّورون الكلام ويألفونه كي يرتبط بهم ويمس حاجاتهم

وتبلورت ايضا عند بعضهم الفكرة واصبحت تستعمل حتى ينتقم هذا من ذلك

وذلك لكي يبعد الاخر عن دربه واخرون ليقتربوا من مدرائهم

والأمثله كثيره .... في عالمنا الان عالم الذي يسوده الظلام



ورغم كل هذا ما يزال هناك في الأفق البعيد قناديل صغير مضيئه

لا يراها أحد إلا سواهم .... هؤلاء الذين كانوا ولايزالون على ما كانوا عليه











------------------- كان الدافع لكتابة هذه الكلمات هي التجربة وخصوصا في اليومين الماضيين

Labels: Life Exp., Thoughts

من الجميل ان نرى امنياتنا قريبة المنال، فنجري خلفها مسرعين، راجين ان نصل اليها بسرعة وخلال جرينا خلفها لا نلتفت الى الامنيات التي كنا قد حلمنا بها من قبل لان هذه الامنية كانت المثل الاعلى لنا. وكلما شعرنا اننا اقتربنا منها نجدها لا تزال هناك في الافق بانتظارنا معلقة كانها تحوم فوق الارض مما يجلعنا نتمسك بهذا العلم الطائر، فنعاود الجري خلفه بسرعة اكبر ثم نجد انفسنا مجبورين الى الصعود للاعلى مع اي تلة او جبل يصادفنا غير مبالين بما يوجد في ذلك الجبل وغير مكترثين بما حولنا شيئا فشيئا نجد ان حولنا قد تجمع الكثير من الناس، بعضهم يراقبنا بدهشة وانتظار لحظة وصولنا والبعض يراقبنا وينتظر اللحظة التي يخطف منا هذه الامنية ويبدا بالنظر الى نقاط ضعفنا ويقويها علينا ثم ينظر الى اخطائنا ويبدا بذياعها على الملأ
فاي قوى بقيت لنا بعد كل هذا الجري والصعود وياتي عندها لحظة الضعف الكبرى لنا فيستغلها من كان بانتظارها فيرمينا من اعلى القمة ليكمل ما بدئنا به ويخلوا له الطريق ونحن في هبوط
اي زمن اصبحنا نعيش به الان - اي رفقة تطوقنا رافعين راياتهم البيضاء الكاذبة .اين ذلك الزمان الذي كنا نفرح لنجاح ناجح ، اين تلك الهتافات والاحتفالات التي تقام له. هل دفنت معهم ام ان ذلك كان زمان لم يعد له مكان بيننا وسيبقى في تاريخنا موجود وسيبقى الكاتبون يدكرونه ويمجدون امجاده .ويبقى الصقوط من الاعلى مجرد حادث يمر بنا في كل حين اتجهنا نحو مبتغانا وامنياتنا؟

Labels: Life Exp.

The joy of searching for your original roots cant be explained,i started this journey few days ago because i get to the point where i felt that i know nothing about my family, where i am originally from, my roots and finally where is the rest of my family.
lots of questions with no answers ?
i kept asking my parents, and uncles with no hope to reach the information that i am looking for, finally decided to took this challenge and start finding the missing parts of the puzzle.
Friends asked why? what are the benefits of this?
maybe to any other people this is not an important info since you know who are your parents and uncles BUT if this is your case haven't you ever questioned yourself where are my other half of the family? where is the part that you have no info about it? Is my parents have uncles ? and where are they ? if yes then i believe we are on the same road!.
Today i just realized that i am not what where i used to believe i am from!! originally i am from other part of the earth. even different language. ( What a shock ) yes i have been told that there are some roots that are from other countries but never came into my mind that my original roots would be from other country.


The roots maybe is like this :
Grand grand grand grand father came from other country and lived here and because of his job he have been named with the our family name and then when they started with the ID thing every body knows him with the new family name and here where the truth started fading out, and because of the War the new people with this family name did not bother themselves to discover and bring at least the complete truth and keep it with them.

again this is what i came to know so far some info still not 100% true because need to confirm it with not only one old man which i am afraid that he might mixed out something.

Labels: Emotions, Life Exp., Thoughts

i become one of the key people for some projects, and yes my words makes a different, BUT so far every thing is moving smoothly, no problem and my BOSS is happy.

couples of days later they brought new HOS, and put it above me so i will be no more reported to the old BOSS.
and here where the problems started...


after me and my new BOSS understand each other and become aware of each one's needs and realize that we sharing the same mentality and goals, our relationship become more stronger, and the achievements gets bigger and bigger, BUT my old BOSS become i donno if i can call it " jealous " from the bigger achievements and the good relationship with the new BOSS.

AND day after day the the more i am bringing more achievements the more my old BOSS taking action against me to stop me from reaching the top, know more people, and finally he desired to move me from the section.

so at the end i tell myself it is not worthy and healthy to work in such environment. and start looking for a new job.


and before i end this there is lots of things in between, like refuse my shifting application to better position and better grade, never motivate me, and did not promote me regardless of the achievements i made

P2/2

Labels: Life Exp.

YES i do always dream to reach what i am now, i give all what i know and learned more to keep myself going forward. i push alot and lost alot, gave lots from my time, my happiness, i gave it all without asking for reward or any thing in return.

i never liked what i am doing but i let myself like it to be better and become unique in where i am, and thanks God i reach and gain success, become the RIGHT man in the RIGHT place.

i still remember the first AMAZING achievement and success, i still remember the fear that was killing me from inside, the fear of failure in front of Executive Director and other Managers, Head of sections & Account Managers. i was the smallest person between them comparing to years of experience, position, post, grade and even age. dam how was my feeling, how much preparation i took ( 3 months ) just to make it work and never fail, and finally i got amazing results from the presentation which was my first.

and then i moved forward to other meetings, arrangements, communication and yes i did an amazing jump and different to the place i am in, and i never stopped, always have new things new suggestions and ideas.

and that leads to meet new people, new positions, start handling more and more responsibilities some of them i should not BUT i took it cause i know from deep inside me and from experience that no one will do it as perfect as i do ; not because i want to say that, because i am the best person who know what i am doing and how to do this since i am in direct communication of my job.


suddenly i become focal point and many many people contact me and i start to be involved in lots of manner, start taking my own decisions and actions.

and NEVER STOPPED

to be continue... p1/2

Labels: Life Exp.

نعمل جاهدا لنرتقي بالعمل وبانفسنا
ولكن نتفاجأ باناس يحيطون بنا
ونعمل معهم ونراهم يوميا
يظهرون لنا الاهتمام وهم في الحقيقه يخدعونا ويبتسمون امامنا لكي نفتح لهم صدورنا

Labels: Life Exp.

This is what i call it Democracy ...
To find complaint in newspaper coming from Qtel staff complaining about Qtel

Labels: Life Exp.

amazing trip to " Al-Saflyah Island "
nice pictures taken there.
nice people to go out with.
and nice weather

Labels: Life Exp.

Long time did not post any thing here in my wall.

every one of us need time to understand some situations specially critical ones
and during that time person may get sick, sad, or even happy. but when it finished you realize that this situation make you more stronger than before and it add value to your life and life experience from real life.

and day after day even after many years if you passed by the same situation and you did the same thing the end won't be harder any more because you already passed by the same ending before.

Labels: Life Exp.